It is good for me that I have been afflicted, that I may learn Your statutes. – Psalm 119:71
Blends are a good thing, usually. Polyester and cotton make for a nice garment. And can you say “chocolate and vanilla swirl?”
But the one place a blend does not work is in my spiritual life. God and I do not share authority 50/50, not 75/25, not even 99/1.
For this life following Christ to work, it must be 100% God in control. Jesus said, “If anyone desires to come after me, let him deny himself, take up his cross daily, and follow Me.” we cannot be 90% dead to self, we cannot be partially crucified. There is no trial version, no co-presidency.
That’s why I’m thankful for suffering, because it empties of myself and gets me closer to zero. That’s the magic number. That’s the place where I live and move and have my being in Him, free from my own desires, free to rest in Him no matter what comes my way.
Believe me, I’m not there yet. I’m not sure what the percentages are, but I know they are not 100% God and 0% for me. But day by day, step by step, as the trials and tests and sufferings of life come my way, I believe He is taking me there.
Destination? Zero. The place where I am nothing, yet I am everything in Him.